the coffee house

Blogging can be kind of tough sometimes in that at times it can sort of feel like you're having this one way conversation. I absolutely love when you all comment; it reminds of why I blog and encourages me that there are other girls out there who share my same thoughts or feel how I feel! So in short, thank you. I also struggle with how I can comment back to each of you. I don't want you to think that your words go unnoticed (I assure you, I read and treasure each note left for me), but I also don't know that if I write a comment back, that you will come back to read it. SO I've installed a new software that will allow me to reply to just your comment, and in doing so I believe you will get a message to make you aware of that comment. I love it! We can have like actual conversations people!

I've decided that as much I love to talk, I also really love to listen and so I'm introducing a new feature. I'm really excited about this because you all know so much about me and my life, and now I will get a chance to take a small peek into yours! I always meet up with friends to chat at starbucks, so I thought that we could meet up at a virtual coffee house today and make some new friends!! So, who's in? 

Here are some questions that we can get started with!   

1/ What did you order for our coffee house date? Tea? Coffee? A specialty drink? 

2/ Where did you grow up?

3/ What is your dream job? Do you have it now or are you still working towards it? 

4/ Cat or Dog?

5/ If you could visit anyone, anywhere, where would it be? 

6/ Are you where you thought you'd be five years ago? Is that a good thing or bad thing?

I've written my answers below! Excited to read yours!!

1     Warm Caramel Apple Spice. It's like Fall in your mouth.

2     I grew up in Brazil/New Mexico. My parents got divorced when I was pretty young so I went back and forth  between the two. I loved living overseas, but there's nothing like the US:)

3     I don't know that there's an actual job title I'm chasing, but I'd love to find a job that allows me to express my creativity, something that can help develop personal growth, where I feel like I'm making a difference, and I feel passionate about - is that real? Though I'm in a bit of a transition period, I love where I'm at - I love who I'm becoming and the adventure I'm currently on.

4     I don't know why I put this, because I knew I wouldn't be able to choose! I'd probably have to say dog, if I absolutely had to! I love them both, as well as all other animals. I'm kind of obsessed. But I cannot wait to get my own dog!

5     I have so many loved ones all over the world, so this is a toughie! But at the present moment, I would really love to visit my friend Stephanie and meet the newest little man in her life, Jaxon! I love seeing photos of their newest addition to the family and I haven't seen her in years and years!

6     Not at all! haha, but really, I saw something totally different. This is probably a really good thing, because I never could've imagined I'd be where I'm at now. There's still some unknowns, but that's fun.

Okay, now it's your turn! Leave a comment with your answers and we'll chat! 

xo. melisa

Coffee Date >> Trust

To Drink: Chai Tea with two pumps of vanilla

On My Mind: As I begin this next phase of my life, I'm full of excitement, nervousness and overwhelming peace. While I may not have a full fledged plan, I find that for the first time in my life I have the opportunity to put my whole trust in God. While yes, I have trusted in Him on many occasion, at this moment in my life, I'm kind of putting all of my cards on the table and lets be honest, it's pretty crazy! I know He has a plan. I know He has one when I don't and even when I do. The joy is knowing that no matter what I do, His plan will prevail. So what about you? Have you been at this moment in your life? How did it go? I was talking with a friend the other day and I told her, "it feels like there's a stillness; I'm not sure if it's the calm before the storm, or if it's settled and the sunshine is going to come." I'm ready for either, but I feel so strange not knowing "what I do." You know, I was defined by "I'm a student, I go to college... it's kind of my job." Now, it's, "I'm a... patiently waiting? Currently trusting in God?" Exactly, I have no name. I've in no way lost a sense of myself, that's not what I'm saying. It's just, you know when you're a kid or even a teen and you think, "Someday I'd like to do that, or become that, or if I had more time (like once I graduate) I'll be able to devote more energy into that..." Well now is that time!! Now is the moment where I can look back on and either be filled with regret or know I made the most of it. 

Unless you've been in this position, it's very hard to explain and if you have, well I'm sure you're nodding your head right along. It's a cool place to be. Yes, I said it was cool. I know something exciting will come of this patient waiting game and in the end I can say, "Yes! My God is so cool, look at how far He's brought me!" Which, I already say, but I can say it... still. This whole shpeel, by the way, is what I want to tell every person that asks me, "So what are your plans?" You know the infamous question. Sometimes I want to simply smack them in the face and say, "I really don't know what I'm doing with my life right now. No, that doesn't make me a loser. It makes me brave because I trust God enough to know that He has a plan. Am I going to be homeless or starving? Absolutely not, ya crazy! Will I get a job? Yes, of course! I'm an intelligent, fully capable young woman who can and will do great things. I'm okay with waiting, so don't judge me. That is all." ... with a smile of course.

I just want to do the most with what I have. I have a list of skill sets that I would hate to not use, simply because I can't find a way to. Does that make sense. I want to do God's will. whatever that may mean. For now it means getting a job (anything for now) and patiently waiting for "the real job".  I just feel so aware of time. I will never be 23 in this position again, this is it, this is my one shot. It's so cheesy and cliche, but I must say it, I just want to live life to it's fullest; make the most of every moment. Thanks for letting me share that with you.

I hope to have these talks with you more often. Mostly because it's good to be open and honest, and because I know sometimes it's good to hear that you're not alone. 

Until Next Time: Let's plan to meet next week and until then let's take our biggest worry, right it down, put it in a box, or a drawer, or under your doormat, and let's pray about it. Let's give it to God and trust that in a week, yes even one week, He can take that worry and turn it into something that is no longer causing us to stay up late at night, but is in fact working towards our good. If God is for us, who can be against us? It's time we stop standing against ourselves. Good luck!

xo.

Melisa